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Nostalgia

On my way to the Hebrew Home, walking up Palisade Avenue from the Metro-North train station, rain puddles trickling down the hill, I thought, inextricably, “I’m really going to miss this.” I mean, I’m going to miss these days, more … Continue reading

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Carmen

Carmen* is sad. She’s been looking that way for weeks now, maybe even for months. She doesn’t smile when I get her attention like she used to. And she almost never looks up. Yesterday, I saw her daughter Bianca* as … Continue reading

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L’Shanah Tovah

“HA-va Nagila, HA-va Nagila, HA-va Nagila Ve-nis mech-A!” The musician was singing with energy and joy, and people were getting up to dance. “What is he singing?” my mom asked. “Hava Nagila,” I said. “What does that mean?” she asked. … Continue reading

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Courage

Kenneth was recently moved to another unit, so I took my mom to visit him. “Do you miss me? Do you know me? Are you okay? Do you like it here? Do they take you outside? Is the food good … Continue reading

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Music

My mom is sad. I arrive to find her lying on her bed, weeping. “I just want to die,” she says between sobs. “What is happening to me?” Kenneth is almost completely nonfunctional. He’s no real companion for her anymore. … Continue reading

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My mom keeps losing her family

Mom: When did my brother Bill die?Me: Bill died in 1990.Mom: When did Bud die?Me: In 1978.Mom: When did Bob die?Me: In 1983.Mom: When did I die?Me: I don’t know, mom. When did you die? She laughs the minute she … Continue reading

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